Sunday, June 24, 2007
todae.woke up at 11am.nth do.went to use com.til 2+ den went to work.
working is nt tat tough fer me. wads really tough fer me is noeing she nids me bt i jz couldnt be by her side. wads the point of regret? does it make any diff? it doesnt.each and everydae she's suffering fer me.i hate myself.i hate myself fer making the 1 i love suffers fer me.
noe i guess i understand y my bro broke up wit his gf le.its bcuz of time.he broke up wit her jz bcuz he love her too much.didnt wan his gf to suffer fer him.
i am stressed.my mood changes.and i'am trying to hid my stress in front of her.i dun wan her to be wrrying abt me everydae.bt looks like she's the 1 who looks sad all the time. tell me how.jz sae.to make u happi i would do anything.simply anything.i noe its unfair to u to be wit me.dis is my 1st relationship.i am nt sure wad to do and wad nt to do.if u noe.tell me.guide me along.play a part.wadever i promised i would do it.
words r hurtful although it may seems to be jking.my heart jz somehow hurts.i duno y.i noe its jz a jk bt my heart jz hurt.my mood change according to her mood.she's happi.i'am twice happi.she's sad.i'am twice sad. if she misses me.means i'am missing her double!
sometimes i slapped my mouth real hard.fer reminding myself nt to sae anything wrong to make u "du lan" or "pek chek". bt whenever i chat wit her.i couldnt sae things tat would make her happi.make her smile. wadever i sae jz upset her.maybe i really "gei kiang". i duno.wad i noe is i jz wan u to be happi.issit tat diff?
wad i felt towards u nw is love and guiltyness.i duno how to make it up fer u.tell me wadever u wan me to do.no matter how stupid it may be.i would do it.even u wan me to shout in public tat i love u i oso will do it. i swear.wit wadever i've gt !
i would nv let go of my wifey.cuz i noe she loves me.i've said.i wont leave her until de dae she dun love me.dis is my promised to her. charmaine wong si ming. i love u.
The Genius's Notes @ 12:29 AM
